A Big Loss

I have never ever felt such a hole in my heart like the one I’m feeling now. My beloved feline Simba is gone, I found him lying lifeless on Tuesday morning, September 24. It was more than likely heart failure, sudden, and without warning. I’m not one to cry, but tears flowed freely off and on for several days. 

Simba came to me, I had no part in his being here, he must’ve known what I’d do, what else could I do? It was late March, temperatures at night were in the 20s and 30s, he made his appearance on the back porch, almost nightly before I knew he aimed to get a bite to eat. So we left food, and water for the skinny and brawny but handsome young man.

A trip to the local vet was scheduled and after a few more days and nights of free dinner and a warm cloth-filled box to sleep in, I finally lured Simba into a pet carrier. Suprisingly, he didn’t get very upset about being caged. I felt like he kind of knew it was going to be alright  and that I would take care of him. And so I did. 

What a short but love-filled life he had! Simba created a place of his own in my heart, and he will live there now, never to be forgotten. 

Rest in peace Simba, you gave me something that no human could have! I love you and miss you terribly.

See what condition my condition is in

I recently had to start taking blood pressure medication but for years I hadn’t taken anything and have felt just fine. I knew about the adage “the silent killer” but just ignored it and figured that when it was my time to check out I’d rather not know about it beforehand.

But if I could pick the time and place it’d be at one of my favorite breweries, performing with one of the bands I’m in, holding my guitar, singing the original song I wrote: “I Know Where I’m Going.” There’s no way of knowing if it’ll happen like that, but hey, there’s no harm in asking.

My BP appears to be under control now, and along with the medication I’m taking (hydrochlorothiazide) I think it’s also helped that I’ve begun to take charge of my temper. Do I have complete control yet? No, but it’s kind of easier done than said when you have a general idea of what ticks you off because you can kind of catch it before you lose it.

I think there’s too much anger in the world today and if everyone would try to rein in their tempers like I’ve been doing we’d probably get along with each other a little better. I should’ve started harnessing mine a long time ago!

Peace.